Lyric of the Weblog Entry: say you've kept some fire aside to set light to me some surprising night.
and say you've locked some fire away to set light to me some surprising day.
to me some surprising day, any day now... i think i maybe wrote on this 7 times in 2006. crazy. i have no idea where to start to explain the things i've learned since i actually took time to relay my thoughts onto this page...but i'll certainly try: you will be able to trust again...even after the biggest heartache of your life. someone will come along who seems to erase everything bad that ever happened to you. i didn't believe that for the longest time. yeah, i was jaded, but isn't that eventually totally necessary? i like dawson's creek. i was offered a job in miami to sing with a jazz band all summer. i'm auditioning for the MUNY again so if that doesn't work out, i have this backup job. i'm moving into a house next year with two of my favorite people in my program. it wasn't originally what i had in mind, but now i'm very excited. so for any of you who wanna come visit can now do so! i'm sick of being just good enough. we're switching gears to performing now. i wanna be as good as i can be. i mean do any of us really know how good we are at something? i'll be the first to admit that i can try harder in all aspects of my life. performing is only one of those. i'm glad i realized this while i still have time to work hard before school is over and i'm expected to be amazing. i've been given gifts. gifts that other people don't have. shouldn't i milk those talents for all they're worth? i don't feel like i am. i mean all through high school i was the girl who sang. i mean i wanna be the girl who can SANG! and dance, and act, etc. i want to walk into an audition and do so well that the directors don't have a good excuse not to cast me. yikes. i saw a girl walking around campus yesterday wearing a tshirt that read "think inside my box". i puked in my mouth a little. classes!! i learn a lot in classes. right now i'm taking acting, voice & speech, dance, pop styles (we sing with a band and a microphone for 2 hours...yeah that's a class), music theory, private voice lesson, math, english, and psych. next year it gets more intense, so i hear. bring it on, bitches. i love to drink wine. i dye my hair a lot. that's nothing new. i managed to be single for the longest stretch of time since age 14...and it wasn't even bad. in fact i loved it! gave me time to breathe. a whole seven months of singledom...can you believe it folks?! three for glenn co-co...you go glen co-co!!! okay so i'm in the spring musical, "on the town". i'm in the ensemble, so i get to play a whole bunch of different fun characters. one of them is dolores dolores...a spanish lounge singer who sings "i wish i was dead" in spanish. ugh i love it. another one of my characters is a cooch dancer. yeah that's actually the name of it. i wear a spangly bra and sheer pants. woof. it's rude how excited i am for spring break. i'm auditioning at the MUNY on saturday...callbacks on sunday. then i'm going to busch gardens in tampa with some friends, then coming back and living the dream on south beach. literally, on the beach. we may sleep there. ugh i love my life. ribs...i ate ribs for lunch. that's why i'm doing this. peace out, crackas. | 
